the notion of karmic relationships

Ugh. Was sick all weekend, and while I feel MUCH better today than I did two days ago, I'm still a far cry from being 100%. But, I wanted to attempt a blog post (warning: have not yet consumed caffeine).

So I was thinking about relationships, in particular the notion of karmic relationships. There are clues to them within yours and another's chart, (while I'm no expert on the topic, yours and another's nodes can be one piece to the puzzle). But that's not really what I wanted to talk about.

For so long I wanted to have that sort of connection with another human being- to be with someone I was supposed to be with, fated, perhaps. I had an epiphany when I read somewhere- and gah, it's driving me crazy that I can't remember where I read it- perhaps MoonPluto? That just because a relationship does have that fated, or karmic, quality, doesn't necessarily make it good.

This notion was major for me, and actually took a weight off me. Took away some pressure, something to worry about.

Of course, it could be a wonderful thing. Or it could simply be part of a negative cycle that keeps going and going. And some relationships do feel like that, non? You can't be together, but you can't be apart. It feels like love and it feels like pain.

But that doesn't mean that you have to be together, ya know? You can become free, and begin a new cycle. :)



Was there a real point to this blog post? Not really. This topic has just been on my mind a bit, and I wanted to write a blurb on it.



Hi to everyone, and Happy New Years Eve. :) Be safe and have fun- I will be nursing what has turned into a head cold, and most likely in bed by ten. :) Here's to a healthy 2013!

rasta kitty will make me feel better.

uranus/moon insanity

omg, mercury retrograde. facebook hates me. also my phone kinda. and this dang rehashing of... shit. sighs.

that's one thing on my mind. the other thing is uranus. more specifically, uranus in the birth chart. even more specifically, aspects that uranus may make to the moon. it's such a... clashing. such a clashing of energies. two very different things being sort of forced into this relationship. i feel like even the "good" aspects like a trine in this case is still... erratic. vacillating. deep and aloof at the same time. longing for closeness but actively ignoring, pushing away.

and then you have my moon/uranus aspect: inconjunct. the exception, i think, to the clashing, but it presents its own set of problems. they CAN'T be smooshed together. it's just two totally different parts of me, my blind spots of sorts. my moon is up in the 8th house, so it goes down deep but there are always concerns. a fascination with death, and not in a suicidal way or anything (at least not currently), just... that. fascination. it's also where my fear lives, and my deep, deep attachments to others. does that sound scary? it feels scary sometimes. but it's just how i've always been. sometimes i think of the eighth house as just a dark room. pitch black. well, maybe a little bit of light shining in from an unknown source. or a nightlight. 

come to think of it, the moon would have been just the slightest crescent in the sky, as i was born right after a new moon. black except for a sliver of light.

then, uranus, which my moon can't see. uranus which is also conjunct my mars. i'm sudden and erratic sometimes and slightly prone to emotional outbursts, and my blood boils. and i say mean things. it's destructive. uranus can be destructive. and mars is just the warrior. it's gone as soon as it comes on. they are never unprovoked, though... and that's where i see the inconjunct. it's something i can't connect, or struggle to, rather. that part of me with my dark moon. getting a glimpse of something there, usually to do with a significant other, that they're not telling me. i always pick the emotionally unavailable types... which is why i was thinking of uranus and the moon in the first place. in relationships, and how it adds a dimension of just not knowing. thinking you do, but then you pull back or the other pulls back and it's just... unsettling.

i know that i have a degree of this as well. most likely why i attract it.

so far the steps i see to overcoming it (and these are very preliminary): speaking. or writing. or just thinking. quiet. not expecting mind reading on either side, aka not assuming. for me, specifically: not exploding. waiting to speak. writing before speaking, to clear out all the shit from my veins. in other words... outlets.

how's your uranus/moon treating you? or... how are you treating it?

edited to add this excellent article on the moon, uranus, and relationships: sasstrology

a card for libra

So it's been like... a week and a half! Astrology classes have been taking up most of my online time. :) 

(Which, by the way, I would highly recommend to anyone interested: check it out at moonpluto).

One of the things we've been practicing in class is the use of our cards- I have oracle cards. The Wisdom of Avalon, by Colette Baron-Reid. Most of the others have Tarot. I'd like to buy a Tarot deck in the semi-near future. (Can you share Tarot decks?) Tarot used to freak me out, but since I've had more experience with it, I see how Tarot- and Oracle decks- really just help you tap into the roots of things. Questions, problems, in general. Yourself. Helps cut through to see what's truly there.

Practicing, doing the exercises in class have helped me a lot in working with my deck. Learning to use the cards and Astrology together. I also watched a Doreen Virtue video with my boyfriend's sister, which had some good tips and tricks on clearing your deck. Helping to prevent your own, or others, feelings interfering when pulling cards for yourself or others. 

I'll do an exercise of my own today- the sun just moved into Libra. What does the Libra sun want to show us?

Funny- I drew the wasp. Anger! Retaliation! Jealousy! Looking at my handy book's explanation:

"The wasp has a stinger that hurts with poison when confronted. Be mindful of how you address the world. If you're not careful, you may sting or be stung. The wasp reminds us that pain is a choice, so don't waste your stinger on a petty quarrel.

On the other hand... if you feel the sting of a wasp, be smart and swat it away- defend yourself!"

Really, the wasp is about relating. A lower vibration of doing so. It also has to do with keeping things in perspective, and not overreacting over the little things. "Chances are that whatever comes up today is smaller than you perceive it to be in the grand scheme of things." 

Relating. With acquaintances, close friends, significant others, strangers- all of it. How sometimes, when we are very close to another person, we can get lazy and it can be easy for our stinger to come out. It's a paradox of relationships. The wasp wants us to watch that tendency. Be aware of it within ourselves. 

Libra rules relating, relationships- especially romantic relationships. Strive toward the higher vibrations of Libra, of relating, asks the wasp. :)

a taste of feng shui

Feng Shui is an interest of mine that, admittedly, I have not indulged as much as I'd like. However, there a few principles that spoke to me, and I thought that I would share them for anyone else who might be interested. :)

Feng Shui is, at it's core, pretty common sense stuff. For example, in the bedroom, the bed should be positioned so that when you're laying in bed, if someone were to enter your bedroom, you would see them before they're actually in the room. Which makes sense, because obviously it's nice to not be surprised by someone entering your room (gets rid of that stress), plus it's good for the flow of the room.

Again, I don't know a whole lot, but I do know that each house, room within the house, has a bagua, which serves as a map of what different areas of the room represent. The bedroom represents your relationship, and within that there are aspects of it represented as well. The one I know the most about is the relationship corner of your bedroom.

 It's easy to find; the farthest corner of the room from the bedroom door. In this corner you want to make sure it has minimal clutter, clean of dust and cobwebs, and have something that reminds you of love/your relationship if you are in one. Could be photos, or a little altar of sorts with things that represent what's important to you in love- stones, crystals, a card deck of some sort with a favorite card drawn, a quote written out- you get the point. ;) And I hope I don't sound tooo hippie-dippie with that last sentence! heh.

Other tips for the bedroom: having both sides of the bed be adequately lit with a lamp on a bedside table or dresser, with enough walking room on either side of the bed, so neither side is cramped or blocked off with obstacles. (See? Common sense.) Touches of red are nice, too. I read somewhere that red sheets are good, especially for king sized beds- since they are so big, and create distance (which personally I prefer, I really stretch out, ha), the color red symbolically unites both sides. Sounds good to me. ;)

What do you think? Have you applied any Feng Shui concepts to your home or workspace?

faery house in coastal new hampshire.
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currents

Hello again! I haven't really got a post planned out, but wanted to write something, so I am just going to write about the current solar system, off the top of my head! prepare for many sentence fragments and half-thoughts ;)


{sun in virgo} harvest season, literally and metaphorically. if you are not satisfied- now is the time to lay the seeds. visualization of goals is important. virgo as the virgin signifies purity of purpose (says Alan Oken in his Complete Astrology, and he put it oh so well). virgo relates to health; now is an excellent time to start a workout routine or remember to take your vitamins every day ;) (especially those gearing up for a long winter!). Every positive health change, no matter how small it may seem, can lead to better habits, healthier and happier body and mind. remember to love yourself and try not to be so critical of yourself. easier said than done, yes, but you deserve a break from any self-destructive thoughts! this is also a good time to get your ducks in a row, in whatever area of your life you need it. that back to school feeling calls for us to get organized and motivated- classic virgo.

{moon in gemini/mercury in virgo} gemini and virgo are both ruled by mercury. mercurian energy has a tendency to be erratic and nervous, but also promotes learning, exploration, and industriousness. both good and bad aspects of this may have a tendency to shine through now (especially with the sun in virgo, too). remember that you're human (but don't use it as an excuse to be an asshole). Also a good time to check yourself and not let your thoughts run away with you!

{venus in libra- ahhh :)} lovely venus in a sign it rules- libra! (the other is taurus). libra is the sign of partnerships, and venus is the planet of love. now is a great time to reconnect if the craziness of life has gotten in the way lately. Try not to be too critical of your partner (or whoever), and just accept the other as they are (doesn't mean you have to be okay with things that bother you- just accept it as part of who they are, if you really want to have an honest relationship with them).
Also, back to self love... this is a good time to work on that relationship as well (not to be a cliche, but it's true.)


well, that's all i have time for tonight. i kind of want to rattle on about mars moving from cancer to leo, etc., another time. much love!

speaking of Venus... image from Universe Today