tiny buddha link, and fear of making the wrong decisions.

Tiny Buddha is an interesting and enlightening website that I don't read nearly enough, but sometimes a link of theirs pops up on my facebook newsfeed that catches my eye... and this was one of them! I can definitely relate to this author, Alana Mbanza, as I try to figure out the next steps of my life (and feel totally flooded with conflicting thoughts and feelings), as she does with deciding whether or not to go to Korea:

"I realized that the issue isn’t about being afraid to go to Korea. The real issue is that I have an overall fear of making the “wrong” decisions in my life.

Interestingly enough, I also realized that this brand of fear directly coincides with my decision to live a more purposeful and spiritually centered life.

(Record stops.)

Huh? I embarked upon this journey hoping to find inner peace, bliss, rainbows, and unicorns and I actually seem to be experiencing more negative emotions than before. Seems counter-intuitive right?

Not exactly.

What I’ve been interpreting as an increase in negative emotions can more accurately be described as a greater sensitivity to myself. I’m “hearing” the messages my mind, body, and spirit are trying to tell me because I’ve made a conscious decision to listen."

You can read the rest of Alana's article here. I'd highly recommend it!